But this time, there is a pandemic to blame.

Like many companies around the world, the one we’re in started laying off employees. Our whole team is part of Wave 3.

Surprisingly, I’m emotionally fine (at least I think I am), probably because I’ve been in the same situation in 2016 when there was a reduction due to redundant positions 🤷. What is heartbreaking was hearing (and seeing) my immediate supervisor deliver the bad news. It is undoubtedly the most difficult task to do. 🙁

Currently, I’m still OK but I’m too disoriented that I feel like my brain cells are everywhere. My anxiety level is at 999 because since the pandemic I am the only one working. The utility bills, my own bills, groceries, mom’s meds or any emergency gastos are on me. *My gahly*.

My diversion now is non-stop browsing in LinkedIn, JobStreet, Kalibrr and all other websites where you can see job openings being listed, sending out my CV like candies, and composing cover letters. Fortunately, there are a lot of openings and they’re currently on Work From Home status until further notice.

My teammates/family at work will meet up next week to submit the needed documents (clearance), return assets, and pick up the stuff we have in the office. When I think about it… the last time we saw each other was March 15[?], or when the quarantine started. When we meet or see each other next, it will also be kind-of the last time after spending more than 8 hours a day with them for almost 4 years.

I have been working for a total of 14 years, and I have different experiences with various professionals. But I can say that the bonding with my recent team (Center of Excellence) is at the top of my list. Don’t get me wrong, I am forever grateful to everyone I’ve been with in my previous endeavors, from whom I really learned a lot for sure. It’s just that this is the first time I felt the family vibe at work. I trust that we’ll meet again really soon. 🙂

For now, it’s just another waiting game. I’m psyching myself that this too shall pass. God will never put you in a situation, nor give you challenges, without a safe way out.